Relaxing

Since my last post I have been thinking further about the process I go through when creating work. Having more experience with making work on other people rather than myself, I took for granted the experience would be similar. It isnt! But its great that it isnt! It is allowing me to question even further my own practice, how I make work and how I see myself as both dancer and choreographer.
After stepping back from the work a little bit, and through Rosie's good advice, it became clear that the way through what I previously saw as a problem, is to relax with the creative process and to let it change if thats what happens. Its certainly meant that there's less pressure in setting work and allows me to take my time and to acknowledge further what is happening in the studio.
I intially thought that through doing this, I would fall into a trap of working on the same thing forever, but the opposite has happened.  With regards to the folk songs I am working with, I am getting deeper and more involved into the music/lyrics/story, whichever I happen to be focussing on, and I can listen to the physcial and emotional messages and receive them in order to move, and yet a structure is starting to form. My performance may be more or less different every time, but I feel that I KNOW the performance. Its not a knowing through having learned it, its a knowing through living it (??!!).

I feel like I have just said something that every performer/choreographer already knows! I guess I knew it also in a way, but this work has made it more conscious for me. I feel that I can relax with the work and stop looking for an outcome.